i was thinkin’ bout the thought of seeing him again… (ya know the guy i was talkin’ bout), but in a way that i’ll totally be able to face him with no regrets..! ofcoarse i would be damned if i say that i got no hatred for him.., i do have but ofcoarse.. forgiveness will oweiz be an option for me! like, im no saint to be cold hearted biatch, ayt? neweiz, as i was saying, to meet him again unexpectedly without any ouch here in me.., yah know that i wuld’nt be tripping ovah ma feet, i won’t turn head ovah heels.., just be able to face him in ma neutral mood… only i guess i hve one week left.. coz, it’ll be a week and the semester wud end.., ofcoarse that myt be ma last chance to see him (c’mon ya know wat i mean.. still wanna see him though), well, maybe that’ll be the last, haizz, ma last glance at him…, coz he told me that it’l be way impossible for him to catch up school by next semester.., dunno like a lil’ financial prob… so if dats d consequences, i must be able to work out on ma own feelings.., ya know be able to completely erase dat guy out of ma senses.., (though it seems totally hard). i did said gudbye to him.. only in txt, wat i meant by that is that.. its ma last txt to him.. ya know a farewell thingie.., though it doesn’t define a lot, a single word "BYE"… but at least i gave him a hint..(as if he cares..). i believe that wud’nt affect him that much, given the fact that he’s totally filled with numbers of frenz.., i guess he won’t bother to loose a single fren.., specially me! i mean why wud he be? im just an ordinary fren so why regret ma absences… still, wanna be fune., coz frankly, every tym that i passed through some places that we used to hang out,somethin’s still craps insyd.., oh, well ate ivy said that i passed half d  percentage of ma feelings in moving on.. so a gud start i guess… 65% move on.. im ssooo near getting ovah.., that’s d only thing im waiting, u know, be totally ovah! by then everything willbe back to normanl, as long as he keep from ma circles, i guess. haizz, this day had been totally a boredom.., imagine spending yer 24 hour sleeping and eating.. (so lame), im looking for new stuffs to keep ma self busy.., (hihihi.. to be busy from him, from getting fat, from bein’ lazy), well, still looking forward to find some income this coming summah.., hi, getting ready for this summah.. have to kip ma body fit.. don’t wanna have some lumps and bouncing bellies wen i ware ma bikinis…. neweiz, wasn’t able to continue ma plans with regards ma O.J.T. i guess it wasn’t ment for me.., maybe there’s more opportunities that are bound ma way..! at least i got ma passport fixed! thanks to mom! got to prepare maself for the finals… so toxicated by the pressure on our exwams… still, wondrin’ when will i see him… for the last tym i hope.., uuurrgghh.. wanna be over.., why is it so hard?