i myt be able to stop ol dis foolishness…. hopefully, just Five days… just five days and im done..! (if i may able to pull it out from here..) how hard was it to pretend that yer fyn while yer completely not… so wasted this past few days… neweiz, gotta admit.. i was happy to saw yah happy…. (if yah really are happy..), yeah.. u haven’t noticed i guest.. but i saw you last wed…. on yer way home i guess.. yah seem quite fyn, well yah shud be ayt? y wud yah not be? me?.. well hir, still  tryin’ to convince maself dat i dn’t deserve this darn treatment! how hard can it get?.. yeah i totally thought i was through… but i just proved it i’m not wen i saw yah last wed., something craps insyd.. i gotta say.. it hurts so badly that i even lost ma concentration in the exwams.. (but i manage to pass ma exwams..). i know i shud be happy to see yah fyn and eventually, happy with yer stupId Fuckin’ lyf! but cn’t stand the thought dat yer happy while i’m darn sad..! ofcoarse.. i’ll be fyn.. like after fIve days…! c’mon, dn’t say im too statistical.. but i bet i wud within fivE days… i’m just waitin’ for the semester to end and ill be endin’ everythin’ between you and me… (if ders reallysomething between u and me..) know wat,. i stop blaming maself for i’ve come to realize dat it was nevah ma fault.. actually im preety proud of maself for i was able to take ma chances… i was able to take risks… and i was able to conquer ma fears… but yer not! yer still darn afraid to take yer chances.. know wat ma friends wer ryt.. "yer a Gay!" so coward to be a man of yer words… only gays do run away in the mess that they have created.. and u just did! i pity you.. coz i looked up to u.., i admired you for bein’ responsible and all but it turned out that yer just a talkshit man…. just like some gays out der…. yah.. i dn’t deserve you… thnks though, i’ll nevah forget..

yet i must admit you did ablle to teach me some lessons… "nevah trust a confident tongue…", i guess actions speak loudah than voice ayt..? i think yer infallible… im just sad that youve proven yer not.. i did not take ma trust on you.. u did.., yah even destroyed it… well, i still hope and wish the best that dis fuckin’ lyf can offah you… i just pray to God that you’ll be able to fynd some suitable financing resources to support yer study.. (if yer telling the truth ’bout yer problemooss…)

haiz, lyf can be as tricky as it looks.. but in the end, i know i did not loose ma game.. you did! for i was der, ’til the end..

goodluck though in yer exams…