just wen u thought everything was in its rytful place….. just then u’l figure out that wat u have is a place of mess…. i just want  to live a simple lyf, yet it seems so hard to get… one moment there i was, olmost blving in fairy tales.. gud thing i had control of maself…. i’m so sick of this Shit stick life…! just for once… can’t i have something for real..? somethin’ which is ol mine.. and mine alone…! im so darn sick of sharin’ ma belongings to other…. i just hate this stupid life… life of lie…! created by people whose main intention is to mke other people’s lyf so fuckin’ misserable!!! d saddest part yet d most truthful, those people who r dear to u r the one’s whose responcble in mking yer lyf like hell…! i’m tired, im sick, and i’m so over this whole redone-done process of make belief,,… i love maself and i won’t let anything  nor anyone hurt me… not again…! ohh God! i olmost believed… im so near to that avenue… gud thing i saw the detour sign and i drove back… back to ma parking space… safe and away from evil distractions that are lurking every where i go… i thought, i had it… i thought it was the one iv beeen searching for… it turned out it’s d same as wat i had b4… embraced with lie.. and pretentions…. make believes…. i had enuf of it… just…. i don’t know… u brought back the fear in ma heart! now, im thinkin.. is this ol worth it..? maybe not…! maybe not…!

how ironic can lyf get?… i never wud have thought things wud be like ridin’ a roller coaster… like one moment there i was bragging ’bout ma stupid lyf.. den in jst a snap… i can ask for nothin’… well.. how ‘am i ayt now… much better if yu’d cmpare to my last standing.., quite busy, both in ma carreer and ma personal lyf…. its been like centuries since i ever rode back in this game called lyf…. now, i can never panthom why i ever bragged ’bout being d looser.. cause it ended up - i was d one who won big tym! now, i can totally say, i have what life has to offer…. got ma future on tracks, educational chaos… no problemoo… and not to mention the guy!.. i guess, a moment of a traumatic, downfall do help in getting to where you wanna be… take it from me… now i know im where i park ma car….! at ma paradise….