cAn u cAll it as a defense mechanism of a person…. if y0u happen to retreat bAck to yEr c0mfOrt zOne…..!? specially when u knew thAt somethin’ myt be happenin’ with0ut yer consciousness….. like somethin’ that’s faalin out of yer lyf…. somethin’ that’s not really yours and y0u dunNo if yull evah get the asUrance that yer craving for…? i mean….. yeAh…, let’s say someh0w… i have the  blessings….. but then somethin’s still missin… like the feelng of bein’ darn secured…..!!!  ol i want is t0  be seure and all….. but that was what im  being neglected on…….!!! lack 0f secUrity and asSurance that what i’am holdin’ ryt now will be the same stuff i’ll be h0ldin’ till t0m, and the day aftah t0m, the succeding days, and probably the same stuff i’ll be holdin’ while walkin down the aisle  and the same stuff i’ll be holdin’ till my last funeral came!  do y0u think i should believe in the words one erson had given me?….. should i stick with thoze w0rds even if ryt now those words were lacking of action baCk-up?…..  guess,, ii can nver really have everythin’ in this world…. but ol i want s soo smple! a full eff0rt and secutity with assurance…! not just words but actions and words!